What is making me so confused...shall I think about it and find a solution or just wait for what will happen!!? It's the problem..who I am...or who I was!! What are my aims..desires.. Why should I lose them! Isn't it strange for a 23 years old girl! to not know what she wants to do, where she wants to be in the near future..and just trust what is coming and do like that!
I was the girl with the soul of a wild passenger so eager to find out the world,reading,studying,seeing,drawing and lots of other amazing things!
What made me so frightened?!! being alone!? having no one to hear my breathing!? staying so "savunmasız"??!
Please forgive me for words I chose (I am always worry about your misunderstandings!!) I know you may worry about me and us! It may hurt your heart...It may increase your concerns about my feelings..feelings about you and your beautiful love..
Beleive me that it was the most beautiful event in my life (beside my family life)...It's so interesting that I find that beautiful love in the person who I haven't fel in love with him! but what about now?!!
Is it the right feeling and I am just whirling around!? Shall I take it easy!
You look so honest, you tries alot, you are too determined to reach your goals than me...Can you take my hand to look for the lost imaginations of my future?! or I should be so strong that do it myself!!? Do you understand me?! Can you answer me?!

عطف به كامنت‌هاي دوست به اندازه نقطه و خيلي دورمون!!!!!!!!!!!

بابا اين قضيه فرشته عجب پيچيده بوده!!!!!!!

اصلا هر كسي مي‌تونه برا خودش فرشته داشته باشه...اصلا كسي از من پرسيد كه فرشته‌اي كه من صحبتش رو مي‌كنم كيه چيه و چه تعريفي داره...براي چي داري انقدر نقدش مي‌كني وقتي اصلا منظور من رو از اون نمي‌دوني!!!؟؟؟ ممنون از اينكه مي‌ياي و مي‌نويسي ولي اين مثل اين مي‌مونه كه رفته باشين نمايشگاه نقاشي كوبيست و بدون اينكه منظور نقاش رو بدونين شروع به جر و بحث در مورد برداشت شخصي‌تون كنين....

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خدايا چرا نمودار زندگي من اينقدر سينوسيه!!؟؟؟ يه مدت خيلي آرومه بعد يهو هيجان‌انگيز مي‌شه...بعد انقدر پشت سر هم اتفاقات عجيب مي‌افته كه نفس كم مي‌آرم!!!!!!

به هر حال مثل هميشه ممنونم چون اينجوري خوبه...آروم بودن خسته‌م مي‌كنه...همين بهتر كه اتفاقات هيجان‌انگيز خوب! بيفته!!!!

آآآآآآآآآآآآآآآآيييييييييي..........نداااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااااا يه كاري براي اين معده من بكننننننننننننننننن......

Today I flew up my crow inside...People can talk together with irrelevant words,too.The crow said: may be we would meet a day on the other side of the world..

فرشته‌هامو دوست دارم...اونا رو از من نگيرين لطفا...

Her hoşcakal demek ten sonra..konuşamadıklarım kadarı ağlıyorum....nedense 2*3 saniyeden fazla senle konuşamıyorum...hal bukı sen benim ilk dayanacak duvarımsın...dünyanın en güçlü ve büyük ellerine sahipsin...en doğruyu sen söylersin...tek güvendiğim yer senin yanın...
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